An abortion at 19 and pregnant again

I was 19 when I had my clinic abortion it was both our choice. My boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant when I was 19. I'm 20 now, not even a year later I think about it everyday.
It's hard because I remember everything. I was awake through my whole procedure, and feeling scared. They didn't even let my boyfriend come back and hold my hand. Instead I had a stranger there. I was uncomfortable and scared. Not a day goes by when I don't think of it. I just found out I'm pregnant again. This time I want to keep it but I just can't afford it. He want me to have another abortion. I'm scared about going through that again. I don't want to lose anyone, unborn or not.

Editor's Comment

It sounds as though your abortion was a very difficult experience for you and to be still struggling with your emotions a year later, makes me think that you need to get some help. I think it is important that you talk to someone independent before you make your decision about this new pregnancy, and don't feel pressurised into a decsion that you don't feel comfortable about. IT might help if someone with financial expertise looked at what benefits you may be eligible to. If you would like some help and support please contact us at CareConfidential.You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for crisis pregnancy support in your area.
This story was sent in on 02/12/2011 and it's been viewed 701 times.

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