A medical abortion
I was early enough to be able to have the tablet form abortion. Having the first tablet was fine, but 2 days later when I went for the final stage, I was crippled with guilt and found it very difficult to even enter the hospital.
Once it was over I was gutted, it was the worse feeling I've ever felt.Over time it hasn't got any better. I still struggle to sleep and I'm constantly racked with guilt. I can't even be around children and babies. Not only did I lose my baby but I also lost my boyfriend. He returned from Afghanistan but things were never the same and it fell apart within weeks.
It's been nearly a year now and I'm finally admitting that I need help and I've signed up to start seeing a counsellor and I've also been prescribed with antidepressants. Things never get easier but I found that talking has made it easier and admitting I had a problem.