A painful abortion

I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant. I had been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half. We were going through a lot of issues then I realized I was late. So through all the mist of the drama I went to buy three pregnancy tests. I then went to his house and we waited there so scared of the results.

Deep down I already knew I was pregnant, the test came out positive

My boyfriend was surprisingly happy. He said regardless of the situation he would take care of his child. He told his mom and she was very supportive of us. So I figured the best way was to keep it from my family because I knew they would flip.
One day my dad called and he found out. Immediately I just started crying hysterically and he told me in the next few days he would be here so I could get an abortion.
I was so confused. My family wanted my child dead? Why? My boyfriend was angry & didn't want me to do it.
Then I went through with the abortion and it was the most painful process ever. I was in so much pain and my boyfriend wasn't there because he was so angry with me. We aren't together today & he says that me getting an abortion is what broke us apart.
I regret my decision and still have dreams of what my baby may have been. It happened 6 months ago and I still have feelings of grief and pain everyday. I'm angry at myself. An abortion is a life changing experience & no one should have to go through it.

Editor's Comment

I suppose at 16 your parents are still very important, and you still rely on them when you are making a big decision. It is sad that abortion is not what you wanted but you went ahead with it perhaps because you felt that was what they wanted you to do. I hope you are able to get some help as it sounds as though you are still suffering emotionally and psychologically. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
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