I'm 17 years old and had an abortion 3 weeks ago.

I'm 17 years old and had an abortion 3 weeks ago.
I was about 7.5 weeks pregnant. My boyfriend and I have been together for two years.
When I found out I was pregnant, I couldn't even believe it. I was numb. I didn't know what to think, but I knew I couldn't keep it.
As the weeks went on the feelings of being pregnant hit me hard.

I was extremely emotional.

My boyfriend and I experienced some rough patches. I felt completely alone, he didn't seem to care. I know it sounds silly, but I felt so close to the embyro developing in me. I felt like it was the only thing in the world that was simply mine. The one thing growing and developing in me, because of me. Something that actually depended on me. I grew extremely attached.
The night before the abortion I was feeling horrible. I was an emotional wreck, but I knew what I had to do.
The day of the abortion I was numb. *I saw the ultra sound and died inside.* Being awake for the abortion, I felt everything. I felt it rip, and as soon as it was out, I knew it. I felt so empty. 3 weeks later, I've been extremely depressed. I feel alone. Anyways, just needed to share. Is there anyone else going through what I am? Anyone willing to share? thanks

Editor's Comment

This was a distressing and emotional experience because you felt a bond with the embryo developing inside you but felt trapped in your decision to have an abortion. It's not unusual to struggle with your emotions after an experience like this. I would encourage you to seek help through CareConfidential so that you can work through some of these painful emotions.You can call the national helpline 0800 028 2228, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
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