I have had 2 abortions.

I have had 2 abortions. The first was 7 weeks. I was 25 and no doctor would tie my tubes which is what I wanted because I take medication that you cannot take while pregnant. So I ended up using the diaphragm and spermicide which failed-I could not take the pill. My boyfriend didn't want it and I knew adoption was an alternative but the shame was too much because my family is religious.
I had no one to drive me to the clinic so I had to go by myself.The place smelled real bad but there was a strong cleaning product smell they used to try to cover up the gross smell.
That day they had about 100 people there. I sat around all day and waited my turn. I watched a talk show on tv about abortion and how the mother was gonna get an abortion but didn't and was glad she didn't and loved her daughter-how ironic.
I took a pill to dilate the cervix. The nurses said after this pill there was no turning back.
I had to drive so I could only get local pain relief, no doping like the other girls.
They took an ultrasound and it was clear as day. I sat on the bench in my gown and could hear the suction machine turn on and a girl whimpering in pain.
The doctor was mean and yelled at me because I couldn't handle the needle in my cervix. He said that if you can't handle this how will you be able to handle what's to come? It hurt like hell. I could feel it ripping away from the side of my womb. Afterwards I vomited bile and fainted in the waiting room.
The second time I got the abortion pill at 7 weeks.It is less brutal as it shuts off the hormone so the fetus dies, but you must go through agonizing labor which I did with twins.
Now I am on a contraceptive iud. Make sure you use birth control and condoms so you won't have to go through the pain and shame. If he won't wear a condom make him get lost!

Editor's Comment

The suction abortion you had with local anaesthetic sounds very painful and difficult if you are left with such unpleasant memories that are hard to erase from your mind. I am glad you have found an effective contraception that suits you. i
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