I never thought I would have an abortion.

I'm a 22 year old woman who's a christian and I love God with all my heart never thought in my life I would do an abortion but I did it today.
Well as for me I was scared of my family, people at church and the bottom line is my boyfriend didn't want the baby.
I had pains after they put a pill there and didn't think I would see my baby. I thought it would only be a blood test but I had a scan and I couldn't get over that picture. He had his father's head and big beautiful eyes and I saw everything but very small. I love my baby still and just wish he had come at a different space of time with someone who would've wanted the baby. I'm hurting, tired, have mixed emotions. I'm just finding it hard to get over.

Editor's Comment

It is hard when your values and beliefs go again abortion, but your circumstances put enormous pressure on you to go down that route. Afterwards it is crossing those boundaries that causes a lot of emotional pain. I think it would help you to have some post abortion support and this is available from post abortion practitioners. Please call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, or log onto Online advisor. for post abortion support.
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