I'm doing the medical abortion.

I am 20 years old and I have a 10 month old son who is the light of my life and the most amazing thing ever.
I am married. My husband is 19 years old and also in the military. We are obviously extremely young. He leaves for basic in a few months.
I just found out I was pregnant a few days ago and immediately I knew I needed and wanted to have an abortion.
On the other hand my husband has always been anti abortion but he also agreed that the abortion was the right thing to do in our situation.

I was completely comfortable in my decision up until yesterday. I'm feeling more and more guilty. And getting attached to the pregnancy. I know I cannot keep this baby and I don't plan on it. I guess since I have a son already I know how strong a mother's love is and I can't help but feel guilty. I guess my main concern is this affecting me mentally. I don't want this decision to haunt me for the rest of my life...I'm doing the medical abortion.
I'm also nervous about that. The abortion is scheduled for Saturday. I'm super nervous about the bleeding and also I have not told my work and I will have to return to work that Monday.

Editor's Comment

I can understand you feeling overwhelmed by another baby with your 10 month son and you and your husband's age. It sound as though your head is telling you the rational thing to do while your heart is telling you something different. It is worth exploring where those heart feelings are coming from and whether you will be able to reconcile those feelings with your planned abortion. As you say, the important thing is that you are not left with long term regret about your decision. If you would like to talk about this click on the link for unplanned pregnancy support.
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