I have had three abortions. I can’t actually believe I have just written that. I regret each one of them more than I could ever imagine. My first one was when I was 16 to the boyfriend I had been with since I was 12. I didn't want to have this but felt as if I had no choice because he was very immature and said he would have nothing to do with the baby or me. My other two were to my last boyfriend who I was engaged to for a year. Ever since my first abortion, I've felt so empty and like something was missing; that something being a child. I've known all along that it wasn't the right time but felt as if it would make all my feelings of grief and anger go away. I will never forget all three of them and think about what I would have had now if I wouldn't have been so stupid and selfish. Editor’s note: Thanks for sharing your story…You’re clearly feeling a great deal of sadness, regret, emptiness, loss and grief, and have even been a little shocked by what you’ve acknowledged in telling your story. Whatever reasons you had at the time to take the course of action you did, the fact is that you have carried this pain for long enough. Acknowledging these emotions is the first step towards finding healing, so that you can become the person you were intended to be before the hurt. Now is the time to be kind to yourself and seek the help you need. Please contact your nearest centre to make an appointment for support. You will be received with kindness and compassion. Alternatively, ring the helpline or use Online Advisor. We’ll be thinking of you.
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