Some of the product of conception is still inside and will need vacuum removal

I am 33 years old and found out I was pregnant a month after splitting up with my boyfriend of one year. I had been pregnant twice before and had medical abortion both times, so when my period was 4 days late I knew deep down that I was pregnant.

After the first two abortions I had promised myself I would never terminate another pregnancy, but yet again the timing was not right and I was faced with making another difficult decision.

I really wanted to keep this pregnancy, despite breaking up with my boyfriend I really loved him and wished things were different. Part of me also felt like this was my last chance to start a family, so terminating a third pregnancy I felt like I would never deserve to be blessed with a baby of my own.

I was 6 weeks pregnant by the time I had the medical abortion.

I went to clinic and had to walk past anti-abortion protesters on my way in. The nurses were lovely, they gave me the first tablet at 9am and the four tablets were inserted into my vagina at 3pm the same day.

I took a cab home and took the painkillers they prescribed.

Approximately two hours later the partial abortion happened, the pain was intense and came in waves of contractions. Unfortunately I continued to experience intense contractions for a week after the abortion, and I have revisited the clinic twice since taking the abortion pills.

I am told some of the ‘product’ is still inside and I will have to go back for the vacuum removal in a few days.

I am grateful for the nurses at the clinic, our bodies all react differently to medication and this has been a very unfortunate three weeks for me.

What I will say to anyone considering abortion in general, is it's tough and it can be a lonely road and a very heavy burden to bear.

This is my third week of contraction waves, and as much as I had hoped to pass the abortion at home I will now have to go through the more invasive treatment. The nurses have assured me I will be put to sleep for the vacuum removal and I will finally be free of the contraction waves (the contractions are my body trying to remove the remaining tissue).

This whole experience has left me feeling drained emotionally and physically. I have had the support of friends, but they have not experienced an abortion so they do not understand the conflicted emotions in carrying inside.

I didnt have the post-abortion counselling for the first two abortions but I will try some sessions for this one. I have found reading other women's experiences helped and I hope if anyone has had a complicated medical abortion like me, they find comfort in me sharing my story.

This story was sent in on 03/06/2015 and it's been viewed 63 times.

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