I had a medical abortion 6 months ago

I am 18 years old, and I had my abortion 6 months ago.
I always have been against abortion most of my teenage life, raised by a christian mother and a hard headed dad. My boyfriend and I have been using no protection and he didn't pull out in time. The day I found out I was pregnant, I instantly cried and thought we couldn't raise a baby. My boyfriend lives about 30 miles away and was unemployed at the time.

We chose medical abortion

I was working a minimum wage job, and we couldn't give a baby a stable home or pay for anything for it, we chose abortion. My first appointment was very comfortable and very friendly, I was 5 weeks and 2 days.
I chose medical abortion because it was controlled in my home and was easier to manage. The day I started my medical abortion, I was alone at home. After the medication was inserted, I felt INTENSE cramps and felt like the worse pain I could ever feel.

I feel like a hypocrite

Post-abortion I feel relieved that I'm not pregnant, but then again I feel so bad and still feel like a hypocrite. We haven't told anyone I had an abortion, we felt we would be rejected and replaced by our friends and family. I am so thankful to have my boyfriend to support me in our decision and I am still healing to this day. Thank you for reading my story. Thank you for making this website.

Editor's Comment

It is very hard to make this decision when you have been against abortion in the past, and it can leave you with feelings of guilt and shame. I am sorry your circumstances were so difficult at the time. I am sure you have sorted out a different contraception as withdrawal method is not effective even if the man does withdraw in time! If you still need some help to work through your abortion please contact the national helpline 0300 4000 999, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.

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