I don't believe in abortion

I don't believe in abortion, I never have and I never will, so why did I do what I am so firmly against? I will never forgive myself for being so gullible and weak, I will never forgive myself for the pain I caused, and I will never forgive myself for trusting. So many wrongs, things were then as they have always been and as they are now - I am unable to change that. I think of you daily and that will never change. I am so very, very sorry that I let you go,my pain was evident and my judgement impaired, god is in the detail and in the detail there are answers. Dance among the stars and shine as bright as a diamond, I will one day hopefully have the chance to be with you again...... for part of you that was part of me will stay in my heart for eternity. I love you little one xxx

Editor's Comment

Your pain is very real and comes from crossing your personal boundaries. It can feel inexplicable looking back, but at the time you may have been under a lot of pressure from circumstances, and made a decision that did not account for your values and beliefs. Refusing to forgive yourself is like a constant punishment, and I would urge you to talk to someone so that you can release yourself from this. It would be very sad and an even greater loss if you lived under the burden of guilt for the rest of your life. for post abortion support.
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