I took a few weeks to make my decision and felt really sure it was the right thing

By anonymous on 09/11/2010
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I had an abortion just over two weeks ago. I took a few weeks to make my decision and I felt really sure that I was doing the right thing. Now I can't sleep for thinking about how things could've been.

I feel I've made a huge mistake

I'm taking everything out on my boyfriend and I can't bring myself to explain to him or anyone close to me that I feel I've made a huge mistake.

Unfortunately a few things went wrong during the procedure (medical) and I saw the fetus which was just over 12 weeks into the pregnancy.

This really is the most horrific thing that's ever happened to me. I was warned it was possible and of how it would look but I'm not sure anything can prepare you for something like that.

The weird thing is though, I didn't feel pregnant until I saw it, and by then it was too late.

I recommend that before going through with an abortion, you're perfectly aware of what it entails. The route of a medical abortion was made out to sound a lot less harmful emotionally and physically. Inbetween seeing the fetus, the placenta getting stuck on my cervix and all of the blood and gore, I really wish I had opted for a surgical procedure.

Editor's comment

As you said in your story, I think the hardest thing is that nothing can prepare you for an experience like that even if you have been told what to expect. It may help to get some post-abortion support from a trained counsellor - check your local area for available services.

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