An abortion 2 days ago.

I had an abortion 2 days ago. I have 1 girl and 3 boys already and two of them have health problems which takes a lot of my time.
I was ten weeks pregnant and had the tablets so I had to pass everything on my own but as soon as I had passed it I knew it was wrong. The baby wasn't in the sack it came out first and I could see its fingers, toes, eyes, ears, nose, mouth etc so I broke down in tears.
I got some kitchen roll wrapped it up and brought it home and got my boyfriend to make a hole in the garden to put it in. My partner seems to be very worried about me and so do I.

Editor's Comment

Your story sounds very traumatic, particularly because you could see that the baby was well formed and developed. I think you need some help to grieve this loss and it will be hard to come to terms with the picture you have in your mind. Please think about getting some post abortion support. It is very early days for you and it would probably be too painful to start counselling yet, but still important to have someone to stand with you. Have a look at the website and the post abortion help offered.
This story was sent in on 29/01/2011

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