I became pregnant a month after my sixteenth birthday.
Me and my boyfriend hadn't been together for long, but we both decided that we would stop using contraception and see what happened. I knew the minute I conceived that I was pregnant, it was just waiting for the 2 weeks after when I could take a test. The test confirmed what we already knew - I was pregnant.
The week after my boyfriend told a family member, and he could not keep our secret and made him tell his mother & me tell mine.
By this time we had already bought a few baby things and were looking forward to becoming parents.
However, at 6 weeks pregnant I developed horrendous morning, day & night sicknessI became very frustrated and distressed about the situation. My dad threatened to move out if I kept my baby, and my only option was to live in one room with a bathroom next door. It seemed like I had no other option but to get rid of my baby.
Me and my boyfriend vowed that if the abortion was booked for any time after 11 weeks, we would not go through with it... The abortion was at 10 weeks and 5 days.
We decided to name our baby Evie Louise. She will always be remembered, no matter what happens between me and him. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't miss her.. I just wish I'd listened to my heart, and not the people around me.
Editor's CommentSevere sickness in pregnancy, sometimes called hyperemisis in pregnancy, can be very distressing and debilitating. I wonder if you might have been stronger if you had been able to get medical help to get this under control. It sounds as though you were feeling very unwell and the pressure you were under became overwhelming. I am sorry that you are grieving the loss of your baby. If you would like some more help and support you can get this as follows. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area. a>
This story was sent in on 20/05/2011