A medical abortion at 16 weeks
1st I was afraid that I would be stuck with that guy (the father) for the rest of my life but then I was dumped. Having a termination was a choice that was made as soon as I found out that I was pregnant. Somehow it took me 16 weeks to fulfil my decision. I hated the father, as well as the child, I felt that they were both trying to make me suffer. I was convinced that I didn't have to love a child that the father had just ignored.
I felt so lost and depressed.
After a while, I started loving my baby, I felt that I was also loved again by myself and by my baby.Then I realized that in order to make that decision to give birth to a baby, you don't need to be loved by a man. There doesn't always have to be a father to support you. I realized that the love you give your child and the love you feel from your baby is much more than anything a man can ever offer you.
After I was dumped, I hated my child and his father but I came to realize how wonderful having a child was and I started to thank that guy who dumped me.
I saw my baby dead in the toilet after it just fell out of me-it had already got the shape of a human, and I could see that it was a boy- I started to hate myself. I feel I am no better than a user to have decided to kill somebody (my child) I loved. Believe me, I would have given birth to my child if I could have told someone else about my pregnancy.