A medical termination at 8 weeksBy anonymous on 12/11/2011
I am 32 years old and have 2 beautiful children.
I feel so so guilty for having an abortion in June I was exactly 8 weeks pregnant at the time. It all began when both me and my partner discussed having another baby. My first 2 pregnancies I had bad morning sickness but with the help of anti-sickness tablets it controlled it. I knew instantly I was pregnant for the 3rd time and was so happy. When I did the test it confirmed I was only 2-3 weeks pregnant.
It was early days but that's when the sickness and headaches started.It gradually got worse and worse and eventually after a further 3 weeks of suffering in bed not able to look after my children properly as my other half worked away and no support from my family I was admitted to hospital. I was pumped with fluids to hydrate me and injected with a cocktail of anti-sickness drugs and it did start to help, a little anyway.
The nurses I had were so supportive, really lovely and I discussed termination with them as I felt so helpless I just wanted to die (sounds dramatic I know but I really felt so ill). After being discharged 3 days later I was still feeling not 100% I discussed termination with my other half. He was supportive and I think he just wanted me to feel better.
I was admitted to hospital again and on the second visit I decided to have a termination. I couldn't believe I was even contemplating it I was so anti-abortion why couldn't I just be better even a little I asked myself. I really wanted my baby especially after seeing the little flickering heart beat on the screen, tears in my eyes.
After making my final decision I decided to go ahead with it, changing my mind all the time especially looking at my 2 healthy children thinking what it would be like with another.... No going back, I went that morning for my first consultation about it. The nurse didn't seem sympathetic at all and I felt terrible. 4 days later I had the first tablet after being sick all morning and then after the tablet I naively thought it might not start to work even after the tablet I was admitted to hospital again on iv fluids and injections. 2 days later I went for the procedure (medical) the nurse inserted the first tablet and then left.