A couple of days ago I had an abortion

A couple of days ago I had an abortion.
At the time I thought it was the right decision I was 14 weeks gone and as the days got closer I was thinking of not going, but my partner told me it was him or the baby, and me being in love chose him.
How wrong I was as he left me two days later.

As soon as I took the tablets to start it off I knew I had made the wrong decision.

and wanted my baby back I have cried and not been me but I've put a smile on so others think I am ok. I'm not ok though and I have no one to turn to. I want to just stay in and not have a life.
Is this normal I feel so guilty because I look and think it not just a bag growing, at 14 weeks it's a really baby with some features. I never want to be in this situation again will the pain go or will I live with this decision for the rest of my life?

Editor's Comment

It is very sad that you made your decision to save your relationship, and then he walked out on you anyway.
It is not unusual for women to feel guilt and regret following an abortion, particularly when you felt it was the wrong choice almost as soon as you had made it. The important thing is to get help and support so that the pain does not stay with you longterm. Many women find that they need help to process the painful emotions you describe, and there is a very good post abortion support programme called The Journey that can help you to do this. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 23/04/2012

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