I'm definitely going through with this.
As I suspected it came out to be positive. Instantly I made an appointment for a medication abortion for the 24th of September which is just a few days from now.
This decision took no real thought or effort given that my boyfriend and I are only 18 and 19, both employed but not even close to being ready for any sort of responsibilities such as a child.
The clinic I'm going to is a town next to the one I currently live in and I don't have a car or a license. My boyfriend is also the only one who knows about my pregnancy. He lives a few hours away and also doesn't drive which means I'll be going to my appointment alone. Afterwards, the only place I'll be able to go to is my grandparents' house which wouldn't be so bad if my grandma didn't work and I wouldn't be stuck there with my grandpa. He is actively pressuring me to do good things with my life (which I appreciate). But it doesn't allow me any comfort.
I'm really worried about this process and having to go through it all alone. I'm already experiencing somewhat painful pressure down there which leaves me to assume this will be a painful abortion for me.
I'm depending on public transport to get there and back and I'm feeling very nervous. I haven't seen my boyfriend in over 2 weeks but a few days before my abortion I'm going to see him and hopefully think of some better alternatives as far as not going to my grandparents' house for the bleeding, cramping, and potentially being in a lot of pain.
I have no support system built within my family and I don't have any friends that I could trust with this confidentiality. I'm definitely going through with this and putting my situation on a site filled with supporting people who have similar issues helps me a great amount since it's no longer dwelling in my mind.