It just seems so hard to go it alone but I don't know what else to do

I just wanted to tell someone, anyone.

I am 30 now and should have been wiser especially having got pregnant when I was 14. I feel so stupid that this is even happening to me... again.

I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant.

I haven't discussed it with my boyfriend because he's under so much stress as it is and seriously believes that he cannot get women pregnant.

Therefore, I have decided to go through with the medical abortion alone [other experiences of medical abortion]. I haven't told anyone what is going on and it's killing me.

I just don't feel as resilient as I was before. Will I be able to recover from this?

There's doubt in my mind even though this is the most logical and rational decision.

It just seems so hard to go it alone, but I don't know what else to do.

I'm scared. 

This story was sent in on 29/09/2015

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