Well, I am 16 now and I had an abortion when I was 15. It has ruined my life.By anonymous on 26/05/2009
Well, I am 16 now and I had an abortion when I was 15. It has ruined my life. Not a day goes by that I don’t regret it or feel upset. I never wanted to go through with the abortion but my boyfriend and I decided it was for the best. I couldn’t tell my mum but my friend did, and she was upset but she was there for me and thought it was the right thing to do, to go through with the abortion. Every day I cry and every day I wish it had never happened. I hate myself so much for it, sometimes so much that I can’t handle it. My boyfriend is being there for me every step of the way but it is tearing me up inside. My message is never have an abortion. Editor’s note: Thanks for sharing your story with us…The strange thing about abortion is that many women say they didn’t want to do it but they decided it was for the best. Our heads tells us one thing – that it makes completely logical sense to have an abortion under the circumstances we’re in – and our hearts tell us something else – that we don’t want to end the pregnancy because our instinct is to nurture and love it. So often the head wins and the heart’s voice gets smothered…but it’s from the heart that the pain comes afterwards. However ‘right’ your abortion was for your situation, it’s clear your heart is now suffering guilt, grief and sadness as a result. It doesn’t sound as if you are coping with these feelings very well by yourself, so it would be good for you to get in touch with your nearest centre and have some post-abortion support. You’ll be able to talk with someone confidentially and be helped to find ways of relating to your experience in a better way and come through these difficult feelings. Be brave – get in touch. We’ll be thinking of you.