I had my termination in July 2007 after my husband walked out on me when I told him I was pregnant.
You have been through a very distressing time feeling betrayed by your husband, and the way he has treated you. I can understand that you feel you could never trust him again. I think that the big hurdle you have to face is forgiving yourself for making that decision, that you now recognise went again your core beliefs and values. You may be subconsciously punishing yourself, and you have to come to a place where you choose to release yourself from this guilt. Your abortion was very wrapped up in your marriage failure, and your feelings towards your husband may also be linked with your inability to move on. If you are still in touch with the centre you went to, perhaps it would help to go back and spend some more time working through this. Some people find joining a post abortion group helpful, as they can speak to others who have been through a similar experience.