I was booked for the medical abortion.
I am 15 years old and last October I found I was pregnant. I couldn't tell the Dad so somehow I managed to tell my Mum and honestly it was the best thing I could have done she was amazing. However, instantly we were talking about abortion and I still feel to this day I never made my decision based on what I wanted. Anyway, I went for my first scan on bonfire night, where I found I was 7 weeks and 2 days which was more than I thought. After the scan I started to feel everything spiralling out of my control and I was booked for the medical abortion. Going in for the first pill was a quick in and out, but its the day in the middle I hated. I hated the feeling of knowing something was going on inside my body that I didn't really want to happen. When I went back for the 4 other tablets to be inserted, I wasn't allowed to have people stay in the suite with me, for the privacy of other women there. I was so scared, I felt so alone there. I just kept on getting injections, first an anti sickness after the tablets were inserted, then I had to get a vaccination because my blood was found to be rhesus negative, which means in future pregnancies it could cause miscarriages(I only found this out through my own research). Soon after this a women came in and fitted the implant in my arm. By this time I had only just started to bleed and had been given alot of painkillers. Everytime I went to the toilet I would think I had passed the fetus but it was just blood clots,and after about 4 hours they sent me home to pass it there. At first I didn't have a problem with it, but in the car on the way home, the pain really kicked in, the contractions of my womb were the sorest thing I have ever felt,and it went on until night time. The thing that I will always be upset about is the fact that I never got to know when I had passed the fetus. I didn't know when to feel upset and the fact I had to flush it down the toilet just upset me. After a few weeks I had to go back to the hospital where I had my last scan and was given the all clear. Since then I have not heard one word from them, or any inquiries about if I needed support which I feel I do. I feel really let down by everyone, and even though I know I made the right decision having an abortion I wish it had been dealt with better.
I am surprised you were sent home before the termination was complete. I think that at 15 years old you would have been frightening coping with all this by yourself, and you could have done with more support and care. The hospital had no way of knowing what your situation was like at home and whether you would know what to do if things went wrong. You still sound quite upset by how you were dealt with. If you feel that one of our trained advisors could give you some help and support we would be happy to talk things through with you. Please ring the helpline on 0300 4000 999 or write to Online advisor.
This story was sent in on 26/01/2010
I had conscious sedation, but I was fully aware of everything that was going on.