Think long and hard before you make a decision to have a child adopted.
Your story describes an enormous sense of loss and grief even after 26 years. You made a very unselfish choice for your daughter, feeling that you wanted to give her a life that you couldn't offer her at the time. It is sometimes hard for an adopted child to take that step of making contact with her birth parents for all sorts of reasons, and it may feel frightening to suddenly change all she has ever known. I hope too that you will have that chance to meet her and be part of her life in some way.
Fortunately adoption is a more open process now and birth parents are able to keep letterbox contact with their adopted child.
If you would like to speak to an advisor who could support you please ring our national helpline 0300 4000 999.