I'm 15 years old and at the end of October this year 2009, I had an abortion.
By anonymous on 09/12/2009I'm 15 years old and at the end of October this year 2009, I had an abortion. It was the most hardest thing I've ever had to do before. It's been a month and a week since it happened and I always get the pictures in my head of what happened on that day before I got put to sleep. I was nearly 4 months pregnant and I didn't even know until the middle of October that I was prgenant. I am getting stressed about it and I cry nearly everyday. I just don't know what to do. I know I'm only young but if I could bring the baby back I would. I am still in the relationship with my boyfriend who I fell pregnant to and we are still together. I think us girls need someone to talk to. I feel comfortable talkng to my mum about what has happened, but I need someone different to talk to. Anyway I know that I will never forget that baby, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
This has been a very difficult experience for you and I am so sorry you are still struggling with it.
I think that there is often a lot of pressure when you are young to end the pregnancy and finish your education, but perhaps you did not get a chance to think fully about your decision and how you might feel afterwards.
I'm glad your Mum and boyfriend are there for you, but if you want to talk to someone different please ring the helpline on 0300 4000 999 ot look on the web site to see if there is a centre in your area. I think it may help you to get support from a trained advisor who understands the pictures in your head and all the feelings you are getting.