An abortion at 17
When I first found out I was pregnant I was 17, and I had my mind set on keeping the baby.
I got home and told my mom and although she said she would be there for me, I knew what she wanted me to do and pushed me her way.
My boyfriend also told me the same things. He'd be there for me, he'd go with what ever I chose, but I knew he was on the same side as my mom.
The day I told my mom I wanted to keep it, she went ballistic, in the end she kept saying thing out of spite to me, I just said I'd get rid to make her happy and put on a brave face the whole time.
Ever since I've done nothing but regret this decisionI feel like and awful person and I just want my baby back, I had it in my head that it was a little girl and since then I felt so bad. I'd tell girls to really think before making a choice. Either way it has a really life changing effect on people as I don't ever feel I'd get over this.
Editor's CommentI think that when you have felt pressurised into a big decision like this, you can feel regret afterwards. It is really important to know that it is the right decision for you and to look at all the information and talk to someone impartial. Your Mum may have felt that she had your best interests at heart, and perhaps thought that you were too young to have a baby, but you are the one that has to live with this decision for the rest of your life. I believe that there is a way for you to work through some of these feelings and come to a place of peace. Have a look at the web site and consider getting some post abortion counselling and support. There are 3 options: call a local centre, ring the national helpline 0300 4000 999, or book into Online counsellor.
This story was sent in on 11/01/2011