A surgical abortion.
When I first found out I was pregnant I cried nonstop .. My boyfriend was very supportive and left the decision to me .. He said if I kept it he would stick by me and if I got rid of it he would do the same ..
I called my doctor and made an appointment with him. He gave me a number for Marie Stopes and I rang them immediately.
I knew for a fact that I could not keep the baby as my parents would never agree with it. I also didn't want to bring a child into the world with an unstable mum and dad who have no jobs!
So I booked myself for an appointment at a clinic for the next day and my boyfriend came with me.
Originally I opted for a medical abortion but after hearing horror stories about it I changed my mind to a surgical abortionWhen I arrived I was sent to a waiting room where I waited for what felt like years for a nurse to call me in for a scan. She confirmed that I was 5 weeks pregnant. I then had my weight and height measured and an appointment was made for me to come back a week later to have my abortion performed.
I then saw another nurse who asked me about my medical history and looked at my blood etc to see if I was suitable for the procedure.
The next week came so fast .. I was booked in for 8 o'clock and when I got to the clinic I was seen very quickly by the doctor who then sent me down to the room where a nurse prepared me for the abortion and talked to me. They were great ! So then it came .. It was my time to go in .. I remember being taken into theatre and seeing 4 nurses and many doctors. They were ever so kind. They gave me the anaesthetic and within a few seconds I was asleep. All I remember is waking up and being taken back to the recovery ward. I was absolutly fine and was allowed to go an hour later!
I know some people would not agree with my decision but I had to do what I thought was best .. I do not regret it but sometimes there is a feeling of what if I kept the baby .. But basically I was just not ready to bring up a child when I'm still a child myself ..
Editor's CommentThe decision you were faced with was keeping your baby and deferring your education, or having an abortion and waiting until you had finished and both got jobs. There are gains and losses with every decision, and hard sometimes to work out what is most important to you. There may always be a part of you that wonders what it would have been like to keep the baby, especially when it was in a loving, caring relationship. If you need some support please call the national helpline 0300 4000 999.
This story was sent in on 21/06/2011