A surgical abortion
I still don't know to this day why I did go through with it, I wanted my baby.The day I went in for a surgical abortion I was numb, just going through the motions, every part of me didn't want to be there but this unknown force was taking me there.
I still struggle to write this over 3yrs on and with the help I have received. Before I looked for help my whole world had fallen apart, needless to say my relationship with the Dad didn't last, normal life did not exist, I struggled to look after my daughter, and my family had to help.
I suffered physical pain in the mornings, suicidal thoughts and I could not stop crying. If I saw any pregnant women it was like a stab in the heart, I couldn't go anywhere near friends babies or go near baby shops. Due dates and anniversaries of the date I terminated my baby were horrendous. It came to March 2010 and I was destroying myself and my daughter so I looked for help.