I regret the decision I made to have an abortion.

I found out I was pregnant in February and thought my world was coming to and end.
My partner and I were still on shaky grounds as we fought a lot and I didn't know where the relationship was going even though we were together for a year.
When I told him I was pregnant, at first there was no reaction from him. He was mainly in shock but a day after he quickly changed tunes and went crazy about the situation. He would call me everyday bullying me into having an abortion as I had told him I wanted to keep the baby.
My family didn't support me either and told me to get an abortion, so I thought I was doing the right thing when I did.

Now I regret the decision and feel I am the worst person in the world.

I have become such an angry person towards my partner even though I love him and want to be with him. I feel depressed and guilty a lot, and cry all the time as I am supposed to be having my baby in September.
My partner said he would be there for me and he has tried, but now he is angry and feels guilty for making me have the abortion. He tells me that he wished he had thought better and let me have the baby, but it's too late now and I don't know if we will be able to forgive and overcome this and remain together. We do love each other but we are tearing each other apart everyday we are together.
Think twice before you make a decision that can change your life forever.

Editor's Comment

There are usually regrets when a woman feels pressurised into having an abortion, and you had told your boyfriend that you wanted to keep the baby. It is hard to face your guilt and regrets, and September is going to be a difficult time for you. I think that you could both benefit from having post abortion counselling which would help you to work through these painful emotions. I hope that you will both be able to acknowledge what has happened and release the anger and hurt that you feel. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.

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