A medical termination at 6 weeks

I'm 17 years old and had a medical termination at 6 weeks, I'm finding it really difficult to move on from what happened and feel like I can't talk to anyone about it, I'm beginning to feel really alone.
I had been with my boyfriend for 5 months when I found I was pregnant, I was in total shock because I thought I wasn't able to have children.
When I told my boyfriend he was really supportive and we both decided it wouldn't be fair to keep the baby so I went to the doctors and made an appointment for the termination. I decided to have a medical termination and he came with me on the first appointment but couldn't make it to the second one.
I thought I'd be fine and he was coming to my house later to make sure I was okay. After I had done it I was on my way home and I didn't realise how much pain I'd be in, I was so scared and didn't know what to do.

The pain was excruciating and I'll never forget it.

Once it was all over I thought I'd be okay but as days go by I find me and my boyfriend grow further apart and I feel so frustrated and angry, with no one to talk to or relate to I feel really alone and I don't want to keep bringing it up with him or him to get annoyed at me. I just want to be how I was before and to be happy again.

Editor's Comment

It is quite common to feel lonely and isolated after an abortion. Everyone thinks you should put it behind you and get on with your life, but the truth is that the experience will change you and your boyfriend, and things will never be the same as before it happened. You need to face this change together and learn from the experience you have been through. It can make you stronger if you face it, talk about it together, and accept that you have been through a major event in your lives. If you would like help with this, please contact us. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.