A medical abortion after failed emergency contraception
Four days after I was inconsolable with grief.I have always wanted a family and many kids. I know I have made the right choice but now my fiance's sister is having her second child and she will be due her baby at the same time I would have been, the pain and jealousy I felt was unreal when I found out. My boyfriend is amazing and it has brought us closer together and I can't wait to marry him next year in March. It can happen to anyone and all different types of people not just teenage girls. My boyfriend broke down just the other day I have never seen him cry before. I know he longs for a baby and so do I. The guilt I feel is unreal, I can't wait until we are married and start trying. I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. I just hope one day God will give me the child I long for. Take care everyone and make every choice well.
Editor's CommentIt sounds as though your values and beliefs did not feel comfortable with abortion but your head was telling you that the aggravation from your family would have been too much to handle. The pain that you and your fiance are now feeling comes from right inside of you, that part of you that you had to deny in order to go through the abortion. Knowing that your fiance's sister is having a baby at the same time yours would have been due is very painful and I'm afraid it will be a constant reminder.
It would help you and your fiance to have some post abortion counselling to try to process the pain and grief you are feeling, and help you to learn how to handle your previous due date, and other reminders. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.