A medical abortion 9 weeks into the pregnancy
My boyfriend was so supportive, I didn't tell my mum or family because of the shame.
I first went into the hospital and took the first part of the abortion, I chose medical..they said it was the more natural way of passing the 'tissue', I was horrified.
They even asked me how I want my baby disposed ofEverything happened so quick, I didn't know what to do, I just took the pill, after coming out I cried, I had just switched off my pregnancy.
A week before this I had seen my baby's heartbeat for the first time, I was scared, I'm too young to have a baby I convinced myself. Then 3 days later I came into the hospital to have the second lot of tablets...They put this right up into the vagina wall and it hurt! after about 20 minutes I felt it come out of me. I have never ever been in so much pain in my life! the cramps were horrible! I had to put my tissue into the bed pan. A week ago I had seen its heart beat and now I could see my fetus in person.
I wish I took a bit more time to think about itI warn other women it happens then and there, you can't go back, you can't change what has happened, I feel empty, I feel like something is missing, I miss being pregnant. I come home and cry I feel like I was pregnant a week ago and now I'm not, it really does bloody hurt, emotionally and physically, I miss it, I really do.
I know this is what's best for me and for it, but I really miss it, I don't know what to do now. When I had my last scan before the termination because they thought I could have had an ectopic pregnancy I just wanted to see it for the last time, I wanted to see its heart beating. I just feel like I want to wake up and it was all a dream, I'm sorry I did it, I'm sorry I put myself in the situation, I know it was the right thing? But I feel bad, really bad.