A 17 year old who had an abortion at 10 weeks

I was 17 years old when I got pregnant. At first me and my boyfriend was okay with it and we were happy to have a baby together.
We told our parents when I got to eight weeks. His parents were okay with him having a baby as long as we had a plan to support the baby. My mother disapproved of me having a baby and made me feel like I was a horrible person if I kept the baby as I would be destroying many people's lives not just my own.
She scared my boyfriend off from having the baby so he wanted me to have an abortion. After a couple of weeks of arguing I finally agreed to have the abortion.
When I went to the clinic I was scared. I didn't want to do it but I felt like I had no choice. I finally had the abortion at 10 weeks pregnant. I had the abortion a week ago and everyday I cry, I can't stop crying I haven't left my house.
Me and my boyfriend broke up as we had too much pressure on us. Everyone has gone back to normal like nothing has happened and all I want is my baby back. It was the worst decision I have ever made I just want to be able to smile again.

Editor's Comment

I am so sorry that you felt pressurised into this decision, especially as you had decided to keep the baby. It sounds as though you did this for other people and not because you were sure in your own mind it was the right choice for you. Please contact CareConfidential if you feel you need post abortion help and support. You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 08/04/2012 and it's been viewed 640 times.

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