I had a medical abortion due to a brain abnormality

By anonymous on 02/06/2012
Sometime ago I had a medical abortion due to a brain abnormality when I was 3 months gone and that was the hardest choice of my whole life.
Since then I have struggled a lot with getting on with my life. Everyday things that I just used to do without thinking, take days to tackle. Some days are good some not so good.
It's been 5 months now and I just found out I'm pregnant again.
I'm going to see the doctor next week but I'm terrified something will go wrong. I think I'm blocking it out of my head, acting as if I'm not pregnant because I can't deal with it if it happened again.
I'm confused and I won't allow myself to think about having a baby. I'm 5 weeks with no symptoms at all. I missed a period and did a test so that is how I know.
I feel there are a lot of things I need to say and let out but I'm just too scared. I just hope everything is fine in this pregnancy. I haven't told anyone yet not because I'm hiding but because I can't bring myself to say those words.

Editor's Comment

It is a very hard decision to have an abortion for an abnormality, and it sounds as though you felt depressed after going through this. I can understand your fears about this pregnancy and until you have had a scan and know that everything looks normal, I am sure you will have a lot of anxieties. If you would like some pregnancy support to help you through this time, please contact CareConfidential.find a centre for pregnancy support in your area.

Other stories...

Story categories

Tell your story

The information submitted in the stories section is generated solely by the public.

Would you like to tell other people about your experiences?