A regretted surgical abortion

I had a surgical abortion nine days ago.
My husband and I agreed it was the right thing to do. We have three children 16,12 and 5 years. It was an unplanned pregnancy and we both work full-time and have no family support around.
I discovered I was pregnant when I was only 5 weeks and had my termination when I was 8-9 weeks.
The first three to four days following I felt relieved.

However since then I have deeply regretted our decision

I feel guilty, incredibly sad that our baby (be it only the size of a bean) is gone forever and we will never know what him or her would have been like.
If we could turn the clock back we would, but now we have to live our lives with the decision we made. We will love our unborn baby forever.
I hope this might help others in making their decision. People tell me time will heal now and we must look forward.

Editor's Comment

It is hard to live with this sadness and regret. I think it is often much harder to go through abortion when you have children already because you know how it feels to continue a pregnancy and get to know a new baby.
There is a post abortion recovery preogramme called The Journey and I think this would help you and your husband to work through some of the painful emotions you are feeling. Please think about contacting us to get this support.You can call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 16/07/2012

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