I went to a BPAS clinic and had a surgical abortion at 8 weeks.
I have suffered from severe sickness in both previous pregnancies, so much so that I have needed hospital admissions for IV fluids and medications to reduce the vomiting. This lasted until 20 weeks with both girls, I also had SPD (excessive movement of the pelvic bone) and had to have crutches and sciatica in late pregnancy too, all making pregnancy a very difficult struggle for me.
My first thought when I got the positive test was fear of having to do pregnancy again and really concerned about the impact me being pregnant and as ill as I was in previous pregnancies would have on my existing children.
My nausea was severe from 5 weeks and I was vomiting 10 or more times a day and felt dehydrated and so poorly that all I wanted was to feel well again and to go back to normal family life again.
My husband did not want any more children and I was feeling so poorly and really missing my kids, I missed taking my youngest to school on her first day due to severe pregnancy sickness.
Termination seemed like the right thing to do so that life could just get back to normal.
I went to a BPAS clinic and had a surgical abortion at 8 weeks. The procedure was all fine, the staff where lovely and I woke up not feeling sick for the first time is a month. Afterwards I just felt relief at being well again, at being able to be a mummy to my girls again, and being able to be me again.
A week later and I must be forgetting how ill I felt as I am wondering "what if I could have been stronger".
In all I wish I'd never allowed myself to become accidentally pregnant but the abortion has given me the option to avoid what would have been a very difficult pregnancy and I am grateful for that choice.