I just turned 14 when I found out I was pregnant

I just turned 14 when I found out I was pregnant, and my mum knew already because she asked me to do a test.
My partner at the time was not ready for a baby. He had his decision already made.
I was 10 weeks pregnant at the time and I did not know what I was doing but my mum was there for me.
I agreed with my boyfriend to have an abortion but when I had the surgical abortion to remove the baby I was so scared.
After it was done I cried for 2 weeks and did not stop crying. I turned against my boyfriend and blamed it on him. Now I am 18 years old and I was trying for a baby with my new partner but nothing happened. We split up when I found out he had cheated on me.
I slept with the old boyfriend again who I had had the abortion with. We only had sex once but 4 weeks later I found out I was pregnant again with his baby. I told him and he wants me to have another abortion. This time I have my guard up and said that I don't know what I want to do. I did not plan this and I wish it had never happened but that's life.
I told my mum again and this time she has said she feels that I wouldn't cope if I had another abortion.
I am 6 weeks pregnant and I don't know what to do. I am still in love with my ex boyfriend and he wants me back but doesn't know I am pregnant with someone else's baby. Please give me advice and help. I know I want to keep the baby but something is telling me I can't :(

Editor's Comment

It sounds as though you are in a complicated situation with your relationships and I would suggest that at the moment you just focus on the pregnancy and make your decision about that as a seperate issue. It would be good to look back at your abortion now and think about why you were so upset. If you felt unhappy about the abortion and felt that it was the wrong decision afterwards, then another abortion could be very upsetting for you.
You should try not to let anyone pressurise you in your decision because you have to live with it for the rest of your life. If you woould like to talk to someone please call the national helpline 0300 4000 999, or log onto Online advisor to have some pregnancy choices counselling.
This story was sent in on 13/11/2012 and it's been viewed 367 times.

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