It's now nearly 5 months later and I wish I'd never done it

I had a medical abortion on August 31st. I went into the hospital and they gave me the first tablet and I didn't have any pain at all. I had to go back the next day and have a second tablet. There was a lot of pain and I very quickly felt sick and needed to lay down.

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My partner was very supportive. I highly recommend no women does this alone.

I could have had that baby but I had a one-year-old and had gone back to work and college and, we both felt we couldn't do it, or rather wouldn't cope with such a young age gap in-between.

The 31st will always stick in my head because that day was the day my son turned one year old. I begged my partner to rethink his decision and maybe we could do it, maybe we could cope.

I couldn't bear trying to celebrate my son's first birthday with also ending a life. He didn't change his mind if anything he told me we had to do it. We're still together now but it's tearing us apart, or rather it's me taking it out on him.

I hope that any women that decide to do something like this really think it through because I'll never be the same again.

This story was sent in on 16/12/2012

Editor's comment

You are obviously really struggling to come to terms with the abortion in August. Not only did you feel uncomfortable about the decision, but the timing on your son's birthday has given you a constant reminder. It is hard living with regret like this. I would encourage you to have some post-abortion counselling and support so that you can work through some of these painful emotions you are facing. You can find out where your nearest post-abortion support is on this page.

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