I had a medical abortion August 31st.

I had a medical abortion August 31st.
I went into hospital and they gave me the first tablet and I didn't have any pain at all. I had to go back in the next day and I had the second tablet. There was a lot of pain and I very quickly felt sick and needed to lay down.
My partner was very supportive. I highly recommend no women does this alone.

It's now nearly 5 months later and I wish I never did it.

I could have had that baby but I had gone back to work and college and having a one year old, we both felt we couldn't do it, or rather wouldn't cope with such a young age gap inbetween.
The 31st will always stick in my head because that day was the day my son turned one year old. I begged my partner to re think his decision and maybe we could do it maybe we could cope.
I couldn't bear trying to celebrate my son's first birthday with also ending a life. He didn't change his mind if anything he told me we had to do it, we're still together now but it's tearing us apart, or rather me taking it out on him. I hope that any women that decides to do something like this really thinks it through because I'll never be the same again.

Editor's Comment

You are obviously really struggling to come to terms with the abortion in August. Not only did you feel uncomfortable about the decision, but the timing on your son's birthday has given you a constant reminder. It is hard living with regret like this. I would encourage you to have some post abortion counselling and support so that you can work through some of these painful emotions you are facing. You can call the national helpline, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 16/12/2012

Read more abortion stories

Post abortion support through The Journey programme


My baby's father was my best friend.


Help & support is available

If you're struggling through a situation like that described above, or are being affected by similar issues from your past, no matter how long ago, help is available.

You can get free, sensitive & confidential help at a centre near you. Use these links for:

Got a story to tell?

Relating your story to other people can be very difficult but rewarding.

If you'd like to tell other readers, possibly facing the same problems you did, about your experiences please click the button to:

Tell your story →