I'm 19 years old and recently had an abortion.

I'm 19 years old and recently had an abortion.
It has probably been one of the hardest things I've ever had to do but when I first found out I was pregnant it seemed like the best option for many reasons.
1. I'm a student who already dropped out of uni before and can't afford to lose more education,
2. I'm not in a relationship and
3. I couldn't tell my family including my mum as I am from a catholic background and I was too scared.
All of these reasons made me have the abortion but after they seemed invalid as I have given up a child, but in most ways it was the best option for me at this time.
I went through the abortion procedure alone although I did tell a friend I was going to do it but never told her when.

I thought it would be easy

I would go in take the pills and let it pass, but actually I was in extreme emotional and physical pain. I couldn't stop crying when it was first removed and now 3 weeks on I still can't go to bed at night without crying and anything triggers me to start crying. The worst part is when I am crying I have to make up a story or cover it up so that my mum thinks that nothing is wrong.
The reason I am telling you my story is that abortion is a hard thing to go through, but if you do find yourself in the same situation as me then please make sure you tell someone who you trust, who is close to you and can help you through the difficult time.

Editor's Comment

That is good advice. I think keeping a secret like this makes you feel very lonely and isolated in a very difficult situation. It is sad that your family's catholic beliefs alienated you from them when they should have been there to support you. It is still early days for you and the experience is very raw but there are advisors who can support you at this time so please don't suffer this emotional pain on your own. You can call the national helpline, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 07/01/2013 and it's been viewed 320 times.

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