The worst decision of my life

The decision to terminate my pregnancy almost 35 years ago when I was 18 years old was the worst decision of my life.
Even though I married and had two beautiful children and a loving husband, I was never happy because of this.
This memory has been with me for many years, even now I cry at times. I thought it was going to be easy but it was not so, because until I die I will not stop thinking about my baby.

Editor's Comment

This is a very heavy burden to carry for 35 years, and difficult to live with such regret. I think it is often hard to imagine how you will feel after an abortion, and although many women think it will rub out a mistake, in reality an experience like this will always affect you in some way.
I would encourage you to see a post abortion counsellor. It won't change what has happened but we have found that The Journey programme does help women to come to a place of peace about their abortion. You can call the national helpline, log on to Online advisor, or follow the link to find a centre for post abortion support in your area.
This story was sent in on 26/10/2013 and it's been viewed 287 times.

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