I'm 19 and recently had a surgical abortion under general anaesthetic
Editor's CommentIt must have been a shock to find out that you were over 18 weeks pregnant when you had been on the pill, but as you say it is not 100% reliable.
Finding out so late gave you very little time to really think through your decision, and it sounds as though it was a shock reaction rather than something you had thought through and considered all your options.
I can understand your longing to be able to talk through your feelings with the father of the baby. He may not want to face the reality of what happened, where as you had no choice.
It would probably help you to have some post abortion support and counselling to work through some of your painful emotions and come to terms with what you have been through. Please contact CareConfidential so that we can get you in touch with a post abortion practitioner. for post abortion support. or call the national helpline on 0300 4000 999