I'm already in love with my baby

I found out I was pregnant about 3 days ago. I'm in between 4-7 weeks into the pregnancy. Honestly I'm already in love with my baby, even though I have horrible nausea, that doesn't stop me from being happy. Sadly I have to terminate my pregnancy. I don't want to. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I wish it didn't have to be this way. I'm a Hispanic Female. The Dad is an African American. We both want it. I'm 18. He's 21. But my parents would never accept my baby into the family because of the dad's race. I'm going to a clinic today to see when I can get an abortion. I hope God and my baby forgive me. I hate this. I don't think I'll ever be the same after this. I'm sorry my baby.

Editor's Comment

This sounds a very sad a difficult position to be in. You are having to choose between your family and your relationship and the baby. It may be very difficult for you to live with the regret of this decision for the rest of your life.
I wonder if you have thought about talking to your parents? I understand this might be very hard but equally it is possible that they could come to terms with your relationship and your baby.

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