I never thought I would be one of those girls that had abortions.By anonymous on 23/07/2014
I never thought I would be one of those girls that had abortions. I was on the pill since I was 16 and used condoms, only once caught but otherwise I was careful. I started dating a guy and around then I missed too many pills (I was using drugs and my mind was somewhere else at the time- stupid I know). Nearly everytime we had sex we used a condom but it broke. I'd even ask him to pull out before ejaculating but he never would. We eventually broke it off I found out he was only 16, a runaway and had a warrant for his arrest for several muggings, and I was 20. After 2 negative pregnancy tests I found out I was pregnant in my doctor's bathroom, convinced I wasn't getting my period because I never do once I get off the pill. It turned up positive. I cried and he wouldn't tell me where or what to do. I met with my psycologist at my methadone clinic and he managed to refer me to a social worker that he knows to speed things up. Other than that i had to show up at this hospital twice in the morning just to get my abortion booked, since they only allowed 8 patients from 8 am til 10 am. I also needed a certificate from a different gynaecologist proving I was pregnant, from a social worker to whom I told her I was addicted to both opiates, benzos and occasionally drank during the pregnancy-before I knew, to prove I was still willing. Once I brought everything they finally gave me my ultrasound and I was a little over 7 weeks pregnant. I tried to look at the screen but they just turned it away like I had no right because I didn't want it. They suggested I go for a local anaesthesia because the waiting list was shorter and here in Italy one cannot legally terminate after 3 months and I was already close to 2 months. I waited two weeks for the date, hating the thing inside of me, hating the guy that tried to get me pregnant so we would be together forever.