I was 15 when I became pregnant.By anonymous on 30/07/2014
I was 15 when I became pregnant. When I found out I was incredibly scared and had no idea how to deal with the situation. As I was young and uneducated I thought I could just take a pill and that would be it, little did I know there was much more to it. More than anything, my main fear was my parents finding out, I panicked massively and later realised I would have to take 2 days off school to have the abortion and recover.
I knew there was no way I could take 2 days off and hide it from my parents, so the nurse called my mum in and told her, from that point on I have never been truly happy. I had to fill out numerous forms and have check ups and scans and all sorts before I had the abortion and it was terrible. Even though I was only 2 months gone, I still feel like I've lost a massive part of my life and it hurts so bad.
My dad had strong beliefs and was incredibly angry, both parents didn't talk to me for a while and even though now, nearly 2 years on everything is okay, there still is that disappointment towards me.
Ever since the day I had it, I think about itI think about what my baby would look like and how old he or she would be etc. it's torture. I didn't have a say on my abortion as I just wanted my parents to be okay with me so it was their decision, although I can see why I still feel like there is part of me missing every single day and found it incredibly hard to cope with at the start and still do now.
If I knew there was this much pain attached to has what happened to me and many other girls, then I would have done everything in my power to ensure it didn't happen.