Sadly I had a medical abortion.
Editor's CommentI think that in our modern world we have so much control over our family planning, that as you say an unintended pregnancy can be a real shock, and difficult to change your thinking and lives to accommodate such a life changing event.
Having said that, there is nothing that prepares you for emotional and psychological effects of termination of pregnancy either. As you say you are grieving your loss and nothing can turn the clock back to your life before this pregnancy.
I am so sorry that you were not able to access independent counselling to help you think through your decision fully. It has been a government recommendation that every woman is offered independent counselling, but unfortunately not compulsory to offer it yet.
There is post abortion help and support available, and although at the moment you may feel too raw to talk about your experience, please consider this as I think it may help you to process some of your painful feelings. You can call the national helpline for more information 0300 4000 999, or log onto Online advisor for post abortion support.