This weekend I had a medical abortion
From 10:30-12:00 I felt moderate cramping and had some light bleeding. I thought "Wow!This is not bad at all!" I even put up Christmas decorations and ate a light lunch. Then, like a ton of bricks it hit me.
From 12:00-2:30 I was in THE worst pain I have ever felt in my life.The contractions felt nothing like period cramps, they felt like full blown pregnancy contractions. There was no way I could sit/lay to be comfortable. For the first 1/2 hour I had diarrhoea and that made the pain slightly less for the couple minutes that it lasted. From then on, nothing could make the pain go away.
I took another co-codamol, but honestly felt no relief. I was puking every 10 minutes from the pain. Puking did make it feel better in those momentary seconds. I really thought I was going to die. At one point I was laying on my kitchen floor with my head between my legs, and I had to reach into the cupboard to grab a bucket to puke in because I could not make it to the bathroom. My legs cramped up as well.
After literally 2 1/2 hours of this, I sat on the toilet for my 100th time, and then I heard something plop into the toilet. This next part kind of freaked me out...at the bottom of the toilet was a small white sac. It was about the size of my pinky fingernail. I'm almost positive that was the embryo. It almost looked like mushy brain matter. I did not at all see anything that resembled a human/foetus, but it was a little white sac.
Then, like magic, my cramping started to come in waves further and further apart and with MUCH less pain. This is when I also started to bleed quite heavily. At about 3:30, I felt like I was having a regular period. I had some minor cramps, but really felt nothing in comparison to what I had just been through. I was physically exhausted and drained. I couldn't believe it was over. It is now the day after my abortion. I have some light bleeding and cramps. Yesterday seems like forever ago. I am not trying to scare anyone away with medical abortion (hey, I made it through and am happy I don't have to be pregnant another 2 weeks) but, I think you should know that it is a painful process. I do feel a lot of relief, and I also still feel some guilt. I'm told this is normal. I don't think there is one right way to feel after an experience like this. Good luck to all the women who read this, stay strong! You will surprise yourself with how strong you can be.
Editor's CommentI think that every one's experience is slightly different although there are some similarities. Usually the further on a pregnancy is the more painful it can be, so it's unusual that your pain was so severe when you were at a very early stage of pregnancy. It must have been hard to find yourself having a medical abortion, when you had decided on the surgical option.
I hope that the feelings of guilt are getting easier, but please contact CareC4000onfidential for post abortion support if you need it, 0300 4000 999.