Having the baby wasn't an option
By anonymous on 12/12/2014I met and fell in love with a guy in my training course with work. We clicked immediately and the rest they say is history. I knew I was pregnant the week it happened, 5 weeks after we first got together. We both had other lives and lived at opposite ends of the country so having the baby wasn't an option. I made an appointment at the clinic the day I found out, I got an appointment with the women's health clinic 2 weeks later. They were the longest two weeks of my life. I had my scan & was confirmed as 6 weeks pregnant & I was told to have a medical abortion. The process was fully explained to me & I was asked to come back that Saturday. I couldn't go at the weekends as I have an 8 year old & my partner was home that weekend. I had to make another appointment for the following week. That week was the longest & hardest week ever. I experienced every emotion known to man. Me & the baby's dad argued & fell out I was doing this all alone & keeping it a secret from my family. I went on the Wednesday & had my first tablet. I was worried & upset as to how I would feel emotionally but as always the nurses in the unit were amazing! I had the tablet & left after 5 minutes. I was told that if I was sick in the first hour I had to go back as the tablet wouldn't work. I felt ok, I had no side effects at all but emotionally I was fine. I felt a sense of relief, no more hiding or worrying! I went back in at 9am in the Friday, I had the tablets inserted inside if me which wasn't bad at all, I has 2 more tablets inserted into my back passage & again this was fine. I had to wear a tampon for an hour & a half. At 10.45 I had to remove the tampon, i was in the room just walking about, I had a coffee then about 20 minutes later I felt like I needed to wee. I went to the loo & used the bed pan, I felt blood run out of me then I had a really weird sensation, it wasn't painful at all, it was just weird, I looked in the bed pan even though they say not to. I was terrified of this but I'm glad I did. I could tell it was my baby along with other stuff. It looked just like a tiny jelly bean. I had read before that you could see arms & legs etc but I couldn't. I realised then that this was exactly the right thing to do. The nurse came for the pan & took it away, 5 mins later I had to go again & passed more clots. The nurse came back & checked it & told me that it was complete. In less than 2 hours I was done. I didn't need any pain relief & I didn't have any problems. I was out of hospital by 12.30. That night I cried for hours because the baby's dad called me & told me he loved me however our lives at the moment went we were meant for each other. Since the abortion I have been fine, no pain & a week later my bleeding had almost gone. I have read so many scary stories I wanted to share mine as it was as good an experience as it possibly can be.