I had a surgical abortion done a few years back, and felt overwhelming guilt.

Am I doing the right thing… I am 27 years old and am about to start my first real job. I am 5 weeks pregnant. I don’t think I can keep the baby.
I had taken the morning after pill. But a few weeks later I could just feel it in the pit of my stomach “I am pregnant”. So I took a pregnancy test and there they were the all confirming two solid lines.
The father is from abroad and will be leaving the country in a couple of months. He has been supportive and says he will support whichever decision I make but that does not include staying in the country. I told my parents. My mom flipped out, told me she wants nothing to do with it and that includes seeing it. My dad says I am not to terminate and I must deal with the consequences of my actions.
I had a surgical abortion done a few years back after I got pregnant as a result of rape. The guilt that I felt was overwhelming. I fear I will experience the same if not worse this time.
Deep down inside I know I am not ready to be a single mom especially without support from my family. I want to bring a child into this world knowing I can support it the way it should be. I fear what will happen should my dad find out I terminated.
Am I doing the right thing?

Editor's Comment

Ultimately this is your decision and what you have to live with for the rest of your life. You may think through what your mom and dad are saying to you, but you have to do what is right for you. You felt overwhelmingly guilty when you had an abortion a few years ago, so this is something to consider. You are also worried about coping as a single mom and you need to weigh this up. Find a professional person who will be impartial outside your family that you can talk to, and explore your decision with.
This story was sent in on 29/01/2015

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