I really don't want an abortion
I found myself in the same situation a year ago (which I hate myself for). I decided to have an abortion, against the father's wishes, I just was not sure if I wanted him in our lives forever. I immediately felt overwhelming guilt & regret for my decision.
I am now in the same position. I am questioning if I seem to go this way towards our relationship when pregnant because of my hormones? I really don't want an abortion but am scared to put my 4 year old through a rough relationship.
I just don't know what to decide. I never thought I'd be in this position again.