I want my baby back so badlyBy anonymous on 06/02/2015
I had an abortion 2 weeks on Monday. I was shaking when I found out because me and my partner of 2 years had only had a discussion the night before where he said he did not want a kid yet.
I have a little girl already who is almost 5 I love her so much but after the abortion I've been so upset I've found it hard to be there for her properly.
The baby was only 5 and a half weeks so nothing really but to me I felt like it was and I was already attached.
He said if I kept it he would leave me and it would ruin our lives.
At the clinic I begged him not to make me do it and at 1 point I even walked out .... I wish to god I didn't do it and I want my baby back so badly ...it's all I think about from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I can't stop crying.
He is trying to be there for me but I have so much anger towards him. I know he was just worried about money because he's bought a flat and money is so tight at the moment and for the next year. But now all I want is to have it back...I've begged him to take away my pain an give it back to me I know having another won't bring back the one I gave up, but I feel it will give me what I need to move on and close this huge hole in my heart.